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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

9:26 AM

ok..! :)

im currently in school right nw.
didnt hav so much time in my hands to update my blog... but nw i do.
of cuz right nw is our break, therefore i took d chance! heehee.
Huiyee.. dun say i neva update hor! :p

aniwae, today's d 3rd day of a brand new term of school.
got back my results, left one more paper.
so far.. didnt fail ANYTHING!!
well, gt oh-not-so-bad results for two of my papers..
IT (omg!) and Contract Law (omg! x2) haha.
VERY un expected...
d rest was ok..borderline, but not so borderline.. ;)

holidays was nt so well spent, i can say..
basically it was work & work..
depression got to me, but obviously it was nt dat worse, of cuz.
i aint a teacher now u see...

the cause of my depression...:

life, esp my love life, aint dt gd i gez..
having mixed feelings abt my relationship
with Him..
maybe im nt so sure abt this.
damn.. it's taken me what?..3 years for me to start feeling dis way??
i'd already planned out my future with him..
yet now im tinking whether i've wasted precious times of my life..
*confused*
i nid him to change. FOR ME.
i've changed my ways for him..
it's his turn now..
those who know him knows what im babbling about.
honestly, i nid him to stop being FULL of himself.. and think about ME too.
i guess i cant change him, but only he himself can change HIM.
get what i mean?? *rolls eyes*

aniwae.... wanna stop having this feelings this instance.
poured out my feelings to Jess & Cma yesterday.. and they fully understood my position.
however, the only choice they gave me was to have a heart-to-heart talk.
which of cuz, is impossible.

ok ok... i'll stop here about my pathetic love life ok?
juz dat i see others being in a very2 good relationship, i feel envious of them.
*sigh*

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oh... i went to trueSpa for a free massage and it was oh so wonderful!!
thans to syasya, i gt dis once in a lifetime opportunity to pamper myself!
so tempted to enter membership, but financially unable to..
i do appreciate though, the chance given to enjoy dis 30min massage frm heaven!
thanks darling!! *love ya!*

the next day, which is Saturday, i saw haikal... was unexpected to actually see him..
another word.. coincidence..
was surprised at myself when i said hi..
HE was definitely jealous.
and i didnt talk to haikal for that purpose.
Only His ego is so huge, dat of cuz, he pretended nt to be jealous,
but what's all the questions for??? hmm??

my past is the past. true??
But sometimes i do think about my past.
and wonder how my life right now might turn out, if i never did some things i did
before.
whatever la. got to stop thinking abt this right??

ok la.
almost all the kids have come back from break.
gotta go...

til next time i find time in my hands...
i WILL update.

;)

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name : yunurhaiza
alias : yun, yunnie
age : I've turned a year older on 3rd Mar! :p)

I am:
Simple-minded
Straight-forward
Open-minded
Easy to talk to
Aint a ~~bitch~~, neva wanna be.

People say, "I AM WHO I AM" For me, i am who people make me believe i am. Life makes us become who we are today, yesterday & tomorrow. LIfe aint perfect, and it's nt always about us. Take a look around... Learning from mistakes brings us to the ground we're standing on. Without tasting d different tastes of life, we dun call it living. We're nt born PERFECT, yet we are being taught on HOW to be perfect. Dat's wat GOD is doing. HE teach. My perspective on LIFE: LIve to learn, from mistakes we do. Be it big or small. Appreciate those dat did us good. Appreciate the chance given, to LIVE.

Yearning for...
♥| ~~a ReaL h0Liday~~..
♥| a whoLe new Wardrobe!
♥| the feeLing of getting used to wearing kiLLer hiGh heeLs!! ;P
♥| ~~a maKeover..~~
♥| a suzuki swift! or.. maybe.. a Picanto?? *sigh*
♥| a Life wif no Pr0bLem0... of cuz dat's nt gonna happen.. :(
♥| my own Baby.. hee3

p/s: Cant tink of aniting more.. will update! hoho.

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