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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

12:02 AM

I'll start my blog with what's goin on with me.
Basically, my life's good.
Now.
However, others around me might not be as lucky as me.
Today, im just worried about money, and how im going to pay for some
of my stuff.
For instance, my insurance, and my savings...
I got lectured by Him about my insurance...
He said it's not the right time for me to get an insurance.
But if not now, WHEN?
Im 22 years old, and im a driver.
I live most of my life out in the world.
I dont live in a shell and stay at home.
3/4 of my life is out in the sun, rain, and under the skies.
I HAVE to have an insurance.
RIGHT?
So, therefore, i need to pay for it so as to save my future.
Currently im in a pothold. (is there such a word? it just seems
suitable for my situation. :p )
I need to pay a few things and i might be able to get put of this mess.
Or else, i wont be able to go to BANGKOK!
Which, speaking of Bangkok, i cant wait to get on the plane!!
Is my FIRST time people!!!
I know, i know... pathetic right?
Well, i dont care. hehe.
Oh by the way, im getting sick right this minute!! Oh shoot!

Ok, ok... enough about that.
Let's talk about love.
I used to have doubts about my relationship with him.
And sometimes im just happy to be with him.
I dont know what's wrong with me.
Sometimes, tears may just come when i talk about my current
relationship to my frens.
At times, i feel like he doesnt care,
and at times i just feel that he's plain ignorant.
But then i will defend him, saying he's just who he is.
I really dont understand why i felt that way.
But now, i think im stil lucky to have, not a really really great guy,
but at least a guy who can stand my character, and ways.
I had one guy like that.
And sometimes, i'd think of my past with the guy and wondered why
i did what i did to him.
The feeling of regret.
It definitely sucks.
And then, i will think of the present, and i'll realise that,
i have the same type of person by my side, but only that he's
just different in some ways.
One of it is that he doesnt show he loves me.
The past did.
So i guess im still lucky, to at least have someone who loves
me for who i am, and doesnt make a big fuss
for being the person who i am now.
He doesnt try to change me, and i feel guilty for trying to
change him.
Lucky me.

Not so lucky for 2 frens of mine though...
One just had a broken relationship of 4 years.
It is a pity, but then again, for her case it's better now than
never.
I support her 100%.
I mean, i would not want her to have a meaningless relationship.
Yes, both love, no, LOVED each other.
But, the guy played behind her back.
That's not love.
And what's with the look he gave that day huh?
So the fault's hers i presume?
Sit and think dude.
Analyse the situation, and you'll find that most of the fault points
to you.
You were lucky enough that she took you back when you made
the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF YOUR ENTIRE LIFE!!!
There. I said it.

Oh man.
I just realised that good guys are so hard to get!
Those who have the good ones, please hold on to the reins.

For my other close fren..
Her life's in a totally bad mess now.
A married life that sucks, not because she has no freedom,
but because she has no choice of freedom.
A husband that lies and cheat, take drugs, and let her care
for their two lil' kids alone.
Picture that.
So? Sucky enough?
Definitely.
She's only 21, married without a grand wedding, and has 2 kids.
It's so sad when i think abt it.
Right now, she's in a current situation where she cant do anything.
Her husband just told her he doesnt love her anymore.
And all this while, she's just like a toy for him?
Im so angry at this guy, but i cant do anything.
Im just an outsider.
The sad thing is even her parents are not giving any support.
Even her sis told her to be patient and just let him cool off.
WTH.
If i were her sis, i'd definitely tell her to file for divorce.
It's so pointless to stay in the marriage, even if she loves him.
You love someone, but he treats you like sh*t.
It's meaningless.
Yet, she's so afraid to do anything, that i cant even help her.
She doesnt realise it, but she's a strong person.
She's still holding on to the marriage even when she doesnt
get any happiness.
If only i got the power and will to help her somehow.
It's totally up to her right now.
My older cousin's out of her marriage now, and she's happy.
She asked for the divorce, and now she's living her freedom.

If only my dear friend could have that same courage...

She'll be free.

~Loves~

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name : yunurhaiza
alias : yun, yunnie
age : I've turned a year older on 3rd Mar! :p)

I am:
Simple-minded
Straight-forward
Open-minded
Easy to talk to
Aint a ~~bitch~~, neva wanna be.

People say, "I AM WHO I AM" For me, i am who people make me believe i am. Life makes us become who we are today, yesterday & tomorrow. LIfe aint perfect, and it's nt always about us. Take a look around... Learning from mistakes brings us to the ground we're standing on. Without tasting d different tastes of life, we dun call it living. We're nt born PERFECT, yet we are being taught on HOW to be perfect. Dat's wat GOD is doing. HE teach. My perspective on LIFE: LIve to learn, from mistakes we do. Be it big or small. Appreciate those dat did us good. Appreciate the chance given, to LIVE.

Yearning for...
♥| ~~a ReaL h0Liday~~..
♥| a whoLe new Wardrobe!
♥| the feeLing of getting used to wearing kiLLer hiGh heeLs!! ;P
♥| ~~a maKeover..~~
♥| a suzuki swift! or.. maybe.. a Picanto?? *sigh*
♥| a Life wif no Pr0bLem0... of cuz dat's nt gonna happen.. :(
♥| my own Baby.. hee3

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